Thoughts: September 20th 2008

I think that the recipe for my deepest thoughts is good music and new seasons of life. 

I look in the mirror more now than I ever have...I look myself in the eyes and remind myself of things that are true. I can't imagine what would happen if I left my house without doing that first. 

I can hear the freeway when I walk outside my apartment. I like that a lot. 

I use crosswalks a lot now. No matter how long you stand next to someone waiting to cross, they won't say hi. They probably won't look up. I always want to say good morning but I never do. 

We don't have T.V. in our apartment. I read through Genesis this week. I wish I knew more about the bible. A lot of people wish that though and never do anything about it. I'm gonna do something about it. 

I watched the movie, "Into the Wild" with my roommate, Mark and our friend Josh. I think there is a lot to be learned from that movie. I like that he only takes the money he needs, and gives the rest away, and then even burns some of it that he doesn't need. There are lot of things worse than money that I need to not be attached to. 

The more people I meet the more I like truth. I like that no matter how many ways people try to swim against the current of their souls, it's the same current. And they all need the same truth to turn around. 

Victory over sin happens not when I can look it in the face and say no, but when I have found something more worthy of being looked upon and have no reason to turn around. 

I don't need to do an inventory on what I need. It's all there. Each day. Without fail. 

There are a lot of things that people have died trying to do that I sometimes feel too busy to do. I wonder how much more alive I really am in those moments. 

Sometimes I spend too much time trying to figure out if I am worrying about the future or just curious. Either way, it usually keeps me from actually doing something about it. 

I like taking care of people, but I'm not ready to take care of someone. And that's fine. 

If I play the right song I can sort through old memories and convince myself that those were the good days. But they weren't. 

I spent a lot of years thinking I could move forward while looking backward.